Bye Bye Christmas

I finally got the Christmas tree undecorated today.  I have to get it done before J goes back to school since he has put the tree up in the 'attic'.  I still don't know what day J is going back.  His classes start Thursday but campus opened today.  Although I love having him home it will be easier to take him back Sunday rather that waiting until later in the week since I have to go back to work Monday. He definitely did not inherit that 'need to have a plan' gene that I have in spades : )

Blah and Boredom

Although I love having time off from work, the boredom has definitely set in. I feel really bleh...this tends to happen when I have to much time off. I have too much time to think and when I do that I tend to start feeling yucky. So, as much as I don't want to, it's probably good that the Christmas break is about over.

Money...or the lack thereof

I am so sick of worrying about money! It seems like that is all I do. I am constantly having to rob Peter to pay Paul. You would think that as a professional with a college degree I would make enough money to live comfortably. Between student loans, house payment, cell phone, college expenses for my son, food, utilities, insurance, etc. I am short every blooming month. I tutor three days a week after school for extra money but it's not enough. Nothing is enough.

New Year - New Plan

Ok, here's the plan... I am going to try to post something every day. It might not be much but at least something. Hopefully, the more I post the better I will get at it. I've been reading lots of blogs and most of them get better with experience. Lots of them start of kinda boring (like mine) but get better as they go along. I hope I can look back a year from now and see progress.

Still here :)

Well, obviously I'm not good at keeping this blog updated. I think it's going to be something that I have to do daily for a while in order to develop a writing habit.

Anyway...J is doing fine at school and I'm adjusting to the whole 'empty nest' thing. One thing I have discovered though...even though J is not at home that does not change the amount of worrying I do. I haven't gotten to the point where I can go a day without talking to him. I need to hear his voice so I know that he is ok. Probably drives him crazy, but he humors me and at least answers the phone.

Things at work (school) have been crazy as usual...would think I was in the wrong place if things were calm :) The life of a special education teacher is never dull. I have way too many students on my caseload but most of them are great. Just a couple of humdingers (another post all on its own). Thankfully no real crazy parents so far. Trust me, I have had my share of difficult ones in the past.

Hopefully with practice I'll get better at this blogging thing...I'm boring myself tonight. Could be because I'm really tired (parent-teacher conferences tonight). I hope I'm not just this boring :)

He really is a grownup

Well today my baby showed that he really is a grownup. First the back story: When J (my son) was in middle school he had to get the Hepatitis shots, as well as an updated tetanus. When I took him to the health department to get the shots he turned white as a sheet, almost passed out and threw up....obviously did not handle it well. Fast forward to today: in order to live in the dorms (which is less than two weeks away by the way) he has to have the meningitis vaccination. I had enrollment at my school today but knew that J needed to get that shot, so I called him at told him that he had to go out to the clinic and get that taken care of. He went on his own to the doctor, filled out the paperwork, got the shot and didn't pass out or throw up. Definitely grown up :)

First post

Well, here is my very first blog post. It's 15 days until my son leaves for college and while I'm sooo excited for him, I am not sure how I feel for myself. For the last 19 years I've known where he is and what he's doing most all the time. Obviously this is not going to be the case anymore and I'm not sure I like that very much, even though I definitely know that it is time for him to spread his wings and be more on his own. I have to trust that I've done a good job and that he will be ok.

Anyway, I will use this space to explore these feelings and whatever else pops into my head. Hope it's somewhat thought provoking and maybe entertaining, even if no one reads it be me :)